I wish I could be one of those girls,
who doesn't care what people think.
But I'm not.
I wish I could say
all the right things
without sticking my foot in my mouth.

To be popular
never insecure
like the girls who have it all.

Such an easy ride
they don't even try
it can make you feel so small.

I wish I didn't want to be one of those girls
but to be honest with you
sometimes I do.

I wonder what it would be like to be head of the world.
not feel empty inside
to be satisfied.
just like, just like, just like
one of those girls.

I imagine that I'm one of those girls
who looks just right
in whatever she wears.
The kind of girl who gets whatever she wants
by just a smile with flip of her hair.

It seems so unfair
when you can't compair.
to the flawless beauty queens.
when you don't come close
to the models you see in the magazines.

I know deep inside.
I'm alright. I'm just fine.

"Sí, ahora tengo amigas (y de las mejores) pero ellas no creen que sea especial, simplemente que estoy loca. “Una loca linda” como está de moda catalogar a los retorcidos mentales para que no se violenten. Y no es que yo crea que soy una retorcida. Sí, a decir verdad creo que soy una retorcida, pero concuerdo con mis amigas: no puedo hacerle daño a nadie. Solamente a mi misma o a otros por medio de mí. Llegó una época en mi vida cuando en vez de enojarme con alguien me castigaba a mi misma para afectar a ese otro alguien."

"Abzurdah" por Cielo Latini

I close my eyes

and all I see is you

I close my eyes,

I try to sleep,

I can't forget you

I won't let you bring me down

It's here and now I'm breaking out

I will learn to love again

But I will stand a broken girl

You make breaking hearts look so easy

Seems like you've done this before

You've got breaking hearts all but down

and you've done this, you've done this before

You make stealing hearts look so easy

Where is the boy I adore?

You've got breaking up all but down

and I can't love a thief anymore

Imperfection till my bones

Something's missing

And I don't know how to fix it

Something's missing

And I don't know what it is

No, I don't know what it is at all

There's a part of you that you wish you knew

She tries to explain, oh boy

I wanna be fixed, I wanna be broken

I wanna be closed, I wanna be open

The love I thought had died is still alive

and I hope that you don't mind

It's been a long year without you And I can't seem to go one day without thinking about you
It's not that I doubt you, if I found you
would I put my arms around you
Wish I could let you know how much I miss you
Entertain the pain, if I could I would kiss you
I wanna be with you
I've tried letting go, I don't know how to quit you

I spent a long time without you
I'm still doing everything I can just to not think about you
Not that I doubt you, if I found you
Would I let my thoughts surround you
I feel just a little bit stronger
I'll wait just a little bit longer
But I'm doing just fine without you, babe

Some people change and some just won't

You can't take back the words you wish you'd never said

Promises break and lovers will lie

You hold up your hands and let out a sigh

So smile right before you fall

And lay beside this mess and call it consequence

Somebody said that life isn't fair

When somebody else was saying a prayer

I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn!

We're left alone, left alone
Watch us slowly disappear with time
Unknown, still unknown
Forgotten, lost, and left behind

.

.

.

.

.

You're not worth my attention

You had your chance and you lost it.

I don't believe that everything you've known about me
is gone forever
And I won't forget the days that we spent forever,

it haunts me

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time

We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine

And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines

But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

I'm gonna go on living like I never met you

And it'll feel wrong at first

But I think I can forget you

Ignore the fact that we sleep no more than three feet apart

I feel you now, you're all around me, underneath me

You're all around me, underneath me

It's in the air now

bitter tears and broken hearts

We're teenagers

we count the years

we think we're smart but we're not

We don't know anything

So don't ask me where I'll go

Cause frankly, I don't know

And I don't give a shit

Why must we all make sense?

Oh, I just won't make sense

For once I'm just gonna live

I'm just gonna live

I'll let it go on...

Can you see the love you left inside of me?