12.18.2009


I am falling down,
try and stop me
It feels so good to hit the ground,
you can watch me
fall right on my face,
It's an uphill human race,
and I am falling down

12.14.2009

Sunday was a bright day yesterday. Dark cloud has come into the way

Why can't I face it?
Am I too blind to see?
Why did he go?
Why did he leave me?

12.11.2009

There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way?

12.07.2009

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know
I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in


Keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through,
we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say,
nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through


So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend


Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly

12.06.2009

Cassie: Do you know what hurts most about a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before...try and keep that feeling, because...if it goes...you'll never get it back

Chris: What happens then?

Cassie: You lay waste to the world...and everything in it.
Cassie: [psychotically, while cutting an apple with a carving knife] Chris and Jal... Jal and Chris... more couples! More and more couples! [staring at the knife] Have you ever been in love?
Jal: I don't think so...
Cassie: [smiling] Do you want me to describe it to you?
Jal: [nervously] Okay...
Cassie: Do you remember when you rode with me in the ambulance after I tried to kill myself?
Jal: Of course.
Cassie: That's what love feels like.
[Cassie puts her knife down and looks at her apple. Jal hides the knife anxiously]


I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors
that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors,
true colors, are beautiful








like a RAINBOW
Show me your smile
Don't be unhappy
Can't remember when
I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
Just call me up because you know I'll be there

12.05.2009


-When will I see you again?
-Time moves quickly. Just think; yesterday you were a farm boy. Today you are a hero. Tomorrow may see us together again.
-Then I'll be waiting for tomorrow.
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-Tomorrow may come sooner than you think.













-That's the spirit; one part brave, three parts fool.


11.07.2009

"La vida es una continua sucesión de abandonos."
So insecure and uninspired
I never sleep so I'm always tired
I try to listen, but I'm too wired
Put up a front so I don't get fired
I try too hard to be smart and funny
Pretend like there's more to my life than money
I've given up on achieving perfection
But I have perfected the art of deception
All of my confidence is completely counterfeit
Life is a hazy daze, chaotic escapade
It's getting me high, but making low
I feel so shallow, I feel so shallow
So inconsistent and overrated
Rip out my heart while my ego's deflated
I get a kick out of being persistent
Push me away and increase the resistance
Keeping your secrets is too confidential
Spreading the lie that has too much potential
Call me fake, call me lost and conceited
I may be weak, but I won't be defeated

11.01.2009


I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure...there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
Last night I dreamed of you
Dream too perfect to be true
Together in a place where blossoms grew
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Last night I dreamed of you
Inside my dream was love so new
The sun was shining and the sky was blue
.

10.27.2009



I wish I could be one of those girls,
who doesn't care what people think.
But I'm not.
I wish I could say
all the right things
without sticking my foot in my mouth.

To be popular
never insecure
like the girls who have it all.

Such an easy ride
they don't even try
it can make you feel so small.

I wish I didn't want to be one of those girls
but to be honest with you
sometimes I do.


I wonder what it would be like to be head of the world.
not feel empty inside
to be satisfied.
just like, just like, just like
one of those girls.

I imagine that I'm one of those girls
who looks just right
in whatever she wears.
The kind of girl who gets whatever she wants
by just a smile with flip of her hair.

It seems so unfair
when you can't compair.
to the flawless beauty queens.
when you don't come close
to the models you see in the magazines.

I know deep inside.
I'm alright. I'm just fine.

10.25.2009

"Sí, ahora tengo amigas (y de las mejores) pero ellas no creen que sea especial, simplemente que estoy loca. “Una loca linda” como está de moda catalogar a los retorcidos mentales para que no se violenten. Y no es que yo crea que soy una retorcida. Sí, a decir verdad creo que soy una retorcida, pero concuerdo con mis amigas: no puedo hacerle daño a nadie. Solamente a mi misma o a otros por medio de mí. Llegó una época en mi vida cuando en vez de enojarme con alguien me castigaba a mi misma para afectar a ese otro alguien."


"Abzurdah" por Cielo Latini

I close my eyes
and all I see is you
I close my eyes,
I try to sleep,
I can't forget you

10.24.2009



I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken girl

10.23.2009

You make breaking hearts look so easy
Seems like you've done this before
You've got breaking hearts all but down
and you've done this, you've done this before
You make stealing hearts look so easy
Where is the boy I adore?
You've got breaking up all but down
and I can't love a thief anymore

10.22.2009


Imperfection till my bones


Something's missing
And I don't know how to fix it
Something's missing
And I don't know what it is
No, I don't know what it is at all

10.14.2009

There's a part of you that you wish you knew


She tries to explain, oh boy
I wanna be fixed, I wanna be broken
I wanna be closed, I wanna be open
The love I thought had died is still alive
and I hope that you don't mind

10.13.2009

It's been a long year without you And I can't seem to go one day without thinking about you
It's not that I doubt you, if I found you
would I put my arms around you
Wish I could let you know how much I miss you
Entertain the pain, if I could I would kiss you
I wanna be with you
I've tried letting go, I don't know how to quit you

I spent a long time without you
I'm still doing everything I can just to not think about you
Not that I doubt you, if I found you
Would I let my thoughts surround you
I feel just a little bit stronger
I'll wait just a little bit longer
But I'm doing just fine without you, babe

Some people change and some just won't
You can't take back the words you wish you'd never said
Promises break and lovers will lie
You hold up your hands and let out a sigh
So smile right before you fall
And lay beside this mess and call it consequence
Somebody said that life isn't fair
When somebody else was saying a prayer

10.08.2009

I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn!

10.05.2009

We're left alone, left alone
Watch us slowly disappear with time
Unknown, still unknown
Forgotten, lost, and left behind

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You're not worth my attention

You had your chance and you lost it.
I don't believe that everything you've known about me
is gone forever
And I won't forget the days that we spent forever,
it haunts me

10.02.2009

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

Taking everything for granted but we still respect the time
We move along with some new passion knowing everything is fine
And I would wait and watch the hours fall in a hundred separate lines
But I regain repose and wonder how I ended up inside

I'm gonna go on living like I never met you
And it'll feel wrong at first
But I think I can forget you
Ignore the fact that we sleep no more than three feet apart
I feel you now, you're all around me, underneath me
You're all around me, underneath me

It's in the air now
bitter tears and broken hearts
We're teenagers
we count the years
we think we're smart but we're not
We don't know anything

So don't ask me where I'll go
Cause frankly, I don't know
And I don't give a shit

Why must we all make sense?
Oh, I just won't make sense
For once I'm just gonna live
I'm just gonna live

I'll let it go on...
Can you see the love you left inside of me?

9.27.2009

I learned the hard way
that they all say things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

9.25.2009

If looks could kill, you'd be a murderer
.
maybe just a whore.
I'm sorry for, I'm sorry for, I'm sorry for,
bleeding on your porch.
I know I know I know,
knew that it wasn't right,
but of course,
I tried to keep my heart
inside of my chest
but that fell through

9.24.2009


If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you; I'll be waiting
Time after time

I'll take my heart
and rip my feelings out
before they make me doubt

9.22.2009

You're the only thing
that drives me crazy
You're the only thing

that brings me down
You're the only one in the world

that can save me
Just take my hand,

don't let me down.
If I could, I would kiss you


Believe me, believe me, believe me

9.21.2009

Ouch!
I have lost myself again. Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found. Yeah, I think that I might break, lost myself again and I feel unsafe. Be my friend, hold me. Wrap me up, unfold me. I am small and needy. Warm me up and breathe me.

9.16.2009



She has two arms to hold me

Four legs to wrap around me
She's not your typical girlfriend
She's my alien

She knows when something is wrong,
when something doesn't belong
She can read in my mind
And she can be assured
that with me there is no conspiracy
She's not wasting her time

She can take me to the place
that she calls home,
in a spaceship that will someday be my own
Please take me to your leader
Tell her I will surrender

My love, intergallactic friend
She's my alien

9.14.2009

First kiss time?
Will you still love me in the morning?
Forever and ever, babe.

9.12.2009


Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.
I'm missing you so much, I'll see you die tonight
Just so I can get to you before the sun will rise
I know the signs are on and I feel this too
None of that ever seems to matter when I'm holding you

And I'm wasting away, away from you
And I'm wasting away, away from you

What have I gotten into this time around
I know that I had sworn I'd never trust
anyone again but I didn't have to

You had me at hello.

I've never seen a smile that can light the room like yours
It's simply radiant, I feel more with everyday that goes by
I watch the clock to make my timing just right

Would it be okay?
Would it be okay if I took your breath away?

You gave me butterflies (you are so cute)
at the mailbox (you had me at hello)

I know that I had sworn I'd never trust
anyone again but I didn't have to
You had me at hello
Can't read my, Can't read my,
No, you can't read my POKER FACE

9.07.2009

Oh, star fall down on me
Let me make a wish upon you
Hold on, let me think
think of what I'm wishing for


Wait, don't go away.
Just not yet.
Cause I thought I had it.
But I forget.

And I won't let you fall away from me.
You will never fade.

And I won't let you fall away from me.
You will never fade away from me.

And now I let my dreams consume me,
And tell me what to think.
But hold on,
Hold on.
What am I dreaming?


Oh, star fall down on me.
These scars, they will not fade away.

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And you do your best to show me love, but you don't know what love is.
This isn't what you wanted.
You don't deserve a point of view,
if the only thing you see is you.

Next time you point a finger,
I might have to bend it back
or break it, break it off
next time you point a finger
I hope it's at the mirror.

9.05.2009

Someday there'll be a cure for pain
That's the day I throw my drugs away
When they find a cure for pain

I propose a toast to my self control.
You see it crawlin, helpless on the floor

Are you still dying, darling?

Are you still dying darling?
Are you still in pain?
Are you still crying,
despite the morphine in your veins?

9.03.2009

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We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

9.02.2009

Find me here, speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light that's leading me
to the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now

Cause you're all I want, you're all I need,
you're everything, everything.

Round in circles, lets start over

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Back to the place we knew beforer
trace our steps to the basement door,
I'll ask you if the rain still makes you smile,
Like so much time that we spent in the fall
it put color in our cheeks while the air turned cold,
Preceding what became our bitter end.

And I won't pretend I understand
Alone with you, alone with me
What can I do? I can not breath
My heart is torn, for all to see
Alone with you, alone with me.

9.01.2009

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that I know moving on is,
easiest when I am around you.


So bottle up old love,
and throw it out to sea,
watch it away as you cry
A year has passed,
the seasons go

Waiting, day to day it goes through
My lips are sealed for him
My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you
To settle for less is not what I prefer


Summer time, the nights are so long
The leaves fall down,
and so do I into the arms of a friend
Winter nights
My bedside is cold, for I am gone
And spring blossoms you to me.